They say hindsight is 20/20. I agree. If I had known 2 weeks ago that I could walk around forever dilated and effaced then I probably would have passed on the internal exam. At the time I so badly wanted to know if I was dilated and effaced because I thought it meant labor was right around the corner. Even my doctor told me it could be "any day now." I was hopeful that the end was in sight. Now, two weeks later, I am thinking I don't really want to know if I've made any progress this week or not. I've read posts on message boards this weekend from women who were 3-4 cm dilated for 3 weeks and still not in labor!

Everyone keeps telling me "she'll come when she's ready." While I know this is true, it's so hard being mentally prepared to go "any day now" and be patient enough to wait 2 more weeks. It's at times like this that I envy the women with scheduled c-sections because they know their time. Then I remember all the needles and drugs and the envy disappears! :)

The waiting is worse than all the physical discomfort. My feet and back can handle the aches. I'm just not sure how much longer my mind will hold out. Even Dave is climbing up the walls with anticipation and he is the most patient person I know.

Getting Ready

The Nursery is ready. The car seat is ready. Dave is ready. I'm ready. Now we just need to wait for little girl to be ready! I am 2cm dilated and 70% effaced so it could be any day now. Or it could be 2 more weeks (Gosh I hope not)! Either way our latest ultrasound estimates baby girl is about 6lbs and 6oz so she is plenty big enough to be born tomorrow and yet she isn't too big which is a relief to hear.

As we near the end of this part of the journey and get ready to enter the next journey of parenthood I am ever more emotional. Sure it probably because of the hormones, but I am also reminded everyday how blessed I am to have this life growing inside me, a wonderful, loving husband, and great family and friends who have supported me throughout the years. We can't wait for baby girl to join our family and meet all the special people who have poured their love on us all these years.