Monday, September 29, 2008

They say hindsight is 20/20. I agree. If I had known 2 weeks ago that I could walk around forever dilated and effaced then I probably would have passed on the internal exam. At the time I so badly wanted to know if I was dilated and effaced because I thought it meant labor was right around the corner. Even my doctor told me it could be "any day now." I was hopeful that the end was in sight. Now, two weeks later, I am thinking I don't really want to know if I've made any progress this week or not. I've read posts on message boards this weekend from women who were 3-4 cm dilated for 3 weeks and still not in labor!

Everyone keeps telling me "she'll come when she's ready." While I know this is true, it's so hard being mentally prepared to go "any day now" and be patient enough to wait 2 more weeks. It's at times like this that I envy the women with scheduled c-sections because they know their time. Then I remember all the needles and drugs and the envy disappears! :)

The waiting is worse than all the physical discomfort. My feet and back can handle the aches. I'm just not sure how much longer my mind will hold out. Even Dave is climbing up the walls with anticipation and he is the most patient person I know.